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Thoughs, thoughs and THOUGHS.

It is the 214 post now.


Ok, people ask you all la. If i tell you all i am going to left this world in a feel days time what will be your reaction?

• Go la, my problem meh?
• Oh, I will be damn sad.
• I will miss you like hell.

I am able to think what will be the answer already.

I have been thinking, I have been talking all the logic to other people. But I am thinking have i been using it on myself? I can only say it is a no. I really did not know did i do the right thing all this while. Because i have been thinking, all i did, did i ever think of the consequences for doing all this? Maybe some of you will know what i mean. But seriously, will i get all the things that i want or i wish for it to happen? Maybe i am just too foolish. I have been thinking, last two years ago the ending part, is it really a challenge that god gave me? For the past two years i have experience and seen things like hardships, failures in love, true love, heartless people, kind people who are willing to sacrifice their free time to help the needy and elderly, fakers, real friendship and many more. Life there are ups and downs, but for me all this are just so hard to handle. Are this challenges i need to go through? If they are can someone please tell me, because i am in a mess now. I have been drowning myself with thoughts all this while to keep all the rubbish at bay. But it seems that it is going to be full. Tell you all some secret, this is the first time i have been so serious about one certain thing, maybe not first time la but i am sure it is a second time. But i bet no one is reading my blog. So should i just shut it off or continue going till there is a day i totally do not want to blog i delete?

Routine

Last week was a exciting yet tiring week. Everyday wake up later and later, things got busier and busier,most importantly the day got more and more exciting with the busy sceldule that we have to keep up with.

Everytime got there, sit down, do QC on raw beans or help the SIA people. It is like programmed to do all this but at least i got something to do and most importantly get to sleep. After work go meet friend then home.

Seriously i got nothing to post so wait till i got things to post then post. BYE.

The end of the week means the end of the first week of my attachment. Wake at 5 everyday and train down to clementi then take bus 285 in. Same rountine everyday, reach there change into the Boncafe T-shirt then can work. Do QC at 3.30 everyday and also 'pasir malam' on every monday and wed. Damn hot one can. After work, go meet good friend, buy water and sometimes dinner, eat, slack then home. Yesterday went to meet her after her work, the best part is that she is not feeling well so I bought a bottle of bitter tea for her to drink, i drink like 1/4 she drink 3/4. Afterthat walk to Yew Tee then back to cck to take bus. Clever right? LOL!

Attachment

Today got nothing to do so went out?
Went to eat lunch with family, then to uncle house but he not at home. ( that is sad)
Chinatown and home again. For two days my phone did not ring ring ring liao. So sad lo. How i hope my phone can ring like hell like last time. But that is not gonna happen the la hor? Human am i correct. I think i have change my mood to a boring mood now cause life is really boring, without enjoyment buy only hoping only. Anyway, tomorrow is the start of my attachment.

WISH MY CLASS (JF0901P) GOOD LUCK IN THEIR ATTACHMENT AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MUST ENJOY! ATTACHMENT IS A TIME FOR FUN AND ALSO SERIOUS. TAKE CARE AND GOOD LUCK. 

COULD MIA FROM BLOGGING AND THROW MYSELF INTO THE LIFE I ONCE HAD AGAIN. BYE PEEPS.

MUST MISS ME YEAH! :D

Attachment

About less then 2 days is to my attachment. Hope at there i will not screw up or what and most importantly do not get mood swings! Because i will start scolding people i think. Nothing to blog. Bye!

2005-2009

From my fatty and crybaby 

To

a botak and no more crybaby with hu shu..

I want to write another composition about my 5 years most memorable life.

I remember the first time i step into Springfield Secondary School, I was so like a stupid, wearing my school tie when everyone was not. Carry a luggage cause it is a orientation 'camp' which i though my stayover. Got to know a Kelly whose Mother came to ask which class am i in and i said 1D and her daughter was from this class too. So naturally we became friend, after a while got to know my second friend called Belle. She is as quiet as ever but soon we got into the hall for some orientation games. We start by introducing which primary school we came from. Meet our form teacher and she is a nice form teacher whom is mine for like 4 years. How cool can it be man? Soon i got to know more classmates and change from a crybaby me to a boy whom do not cry so easily by someone. Got into Libarian, everytime after school on Friday go there to do duty, it is fun cause we were like superman plying her and there putting books. It is really fun but it is over now.

During Secondary two, I got 3 best friends and we soon became brothers but we always fight though but in the end we got back together. But there are two who always fight one and those two are JUN XIANG and MARCUS! But i remember in secondary two, i did not know what happen to me man, my maths which is so poor suddenly improve till i got first and still got a star award. Next, i learn what is call cannot be mischiveous as beacuse of my naughyness, i have a scar above my nose cause i play pushing games with marcus. Afterthat, this year we also have streaming, but the sadded part was i was put to sec 3C, so i went to appeal for A-maths cause Mr. Tan call me to do so beacuse he say it is worth the try. So i went to try and i got into 3A. Got to make a CCA called robotics, went for competitions but we still lost cause we have no experience but at least we got some experience and i got to do hands on which i have improve on.

Beginning of secondary 3 and a new beginning. Learning new things at a new level and difficulty and most importantly i am wearing long pants. Sang the national athem at the parade square, got to know who is our form teacher and to my surpirse is mdm zaleela. I was expecting some mean teacher. But i breath a sign of relief cause she know me inside out. We got into the class, immediately, we have our seating arrangement. First to move was me, marcus and jun xiang. we were move to all three corners of the classrooms and i am move to the very very corner. But the sad thing was that my teacher was expecting me to be quiet but instead i was even noisier but she cannot do anything. Got into DNT for my elective, begin to learn how to draw but my drawing was so bad that everytime is my teacher draw for me not i draw myself cause my own drawing is like a scribble. Went into workshop, instead of using the students workshop, i used the teacher's workshop because we are like the people whom know all the teachers and instructor there so well that we can just use. Got alot of materials and waste alot too, but really had a great time at there because the instructors can just throw everything down on their hand just to help me? Finally i am done with my artifact and i am very proud of it. Soon, i graduated with not very good results but it is still passable, failed my 'O' level maths which i seems to have totally lost interest in maths.But thanks to Mr. Tan, i got back my interest bit by bit. Got to learn self-defence because all was learning so i see fun and Mr. Tan call me to learn so i went to learn. During that time i really had a good time because it is like we got to know each other weakness and our own weakness too. the best and worse part was when we were told to 'Rape" a girl, we was injured instead of them. Learn and learn and finally i do my rolls and falls without seeing or thinking how too. That is an achievement man, so when we were about to go to the advance part, he have to go. So we have to stop eventually. But at least we learn some new skills.

Secondary 4 life is really not easy. Got to experience real stress, time line, love, break-up, hurt, real friendship who is willing to help me, sadness of parting, betrayal and many more. continue on what we ended on secondary three, maths got harder and harder, lost total interest in Humanities thus sleeping in every Humanities class and failing almost all the test and exams so naturally i also fail my 'N' level too. Continue on my elective on DNT, i did a portable table for two so that they both can bring it along and go to the beach or something to have a romantic candle lit dinner? Maybe i was thinking it with the girl i like during that time and the theme seems so close so i used it? But yeah, it took me a 2 months plus to do, not always doing mine thought cause i was also helping my friend too. Soon two months plus was up, time for me to go hand up my artifact, i got a A2 but during 'N' Level because of  my theory paper, i got a B4 but thanks to my artifact i think, it put up my grade not causing it to fail. Soon after 'N' level it is 'O', i got so lazy i pon remedial,hang teachers call till he have to call my house and i have no choice but to pick up. In the end i got a C6 even i am so lazy, but i think if i got more hardworking i can get better results. Got to stead with this girl called A GIRL,  I though it could last long but to my horror, i just ended on the last day of 2008. How nice can her new year present be man. She just gave me a very good new year present and i cried obviously previous night because it just appear in bubbles all the good times and bad times? But soon i have to go ITE.

I got into ITE, a person whom is so blur just walk to find the sports hall, got to know a person called Jun An, although now i dun really like him thought. Soon, i got to know more classmates and made some really close friends. As times goes by, we got to have our first practical, started talking to a girl in my class but instead of saying hello i was ask what and shoot for having the same surname as her. It is like what the, but believe it or not, she is my good friend now. But at the same time something happen too. This you all will have to slowly guess because i will not post. Maybe you all can guess but to say i did not expect this to happen man, because i have never thought about it that time. In this school i have seem lots of funny things, fake things and walking 'washing machines'. Secondary school is not like this is it because we are not yet matured or what? Here, i think i got matured also have to thank her. Not because of her i also never thought i could be so outspoken. Maybe you know who you are maybe you do not know. For all we know, it is a changing year for me.

For this year i am hoping:

• More friendship
• No more brain washers and irritating people
• More outings with people
• More money
• Treat my family better with much more respect
• Cook for some people
• Less stress and pressure

How great can my New Year be? It is still as boring as a normal day.

• Got woken up in the morning.
• Wash up and pray at my altar for my up-coming attachment and more.
• Cook lunch for them to eat because i love to cook :D
• Wanted to ask my mum to bring me to temple but they are going out so forget it.
• Read ALL the magazine that has been stacking under my coffee table.
• Read until one and say this year have 小人 will try to harm me and my health will be bad.
• I believe i will not get harm?
• Help my dad with his workers pay system and Connections enterprise price list plus products selling rate.
• Pass the A4 size paper into one A1 size paper.
• Had dinnner:D *FOOD FOOD*
• Roll into a 'cane' and off he go deliver to his foreman.

Year 2010!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.
Yesterday was like spamming sms to people and i also got spam back too. And the worse part is that the connection boomz at 12 midnight. Anyway it is a brand new year and a brand new beginning. Why am i saying this when i dun even want to have a brand new beginning? Because even if i do not want a brand new beginning it is still happening so just need to accept it.

This year i really hope it can be a better year for me. Cause last year is not counted as a screw up but it is still a screw up.

To a good friend:
You are growing up and i am sure about it. Because i can imagine how you will look like after the attachment and come back. You will look so matured and serious but you will still show your children side for sure cause it is your nature. Although i do not know if you got read my blog but i will still wish you good luck in year 2010.

By the side:I am a very patient guy. Because i believe some things is worth the wait. I will continue to help you even if you were to ignore me because you are a person whom i really think is worth the help.

North

Have been singing north song for a very long time man. Now while i am typing i am singing too.

Nice song they have. 

Songs like:

North - The Day Before

North - I Am Strong

NORTH - GLORY OF LOVE

I shall post their music video soon later.

Should i just stop blogging?

How i hope there is a device call the time machine!

I really want to go back to SPRINGFIELD SECONDARY SCHOOL and never graduate!
I miss Mr. TAN PUAY BOON the teacher whom is serious at most of the time but also nice to talk too when it is only after school hours or when there is no fellow teachers around. I rememeber the times when he reprimand me for being lazy, dun want to put in effort in everything i do and call me to stay back after school not letting me take my bag out for lunch break! LOLS! But thanks to him, i now know what is the true meaning of hardworking and practice make perfect. Most importantly is that he taught me not to give up when i meet a complicated and difficult question on my math for both 'O' and 'N' level. His persistent for making me go back to school after my 'N' to do the maths practice paper is really very irritating but at least now i know what it means by being persistent and you may pay off from the effort that you made. After the exams, he will always stand outside the hall waiting for us to come out. Whenever we come out, his first impression on his face will be 4A how is your paper. If we tell him that the paper is very difficult, her would just say, dun worry,  you all definitely will pass cause you all put in effort. The next one will target me of course, he would say: Shermen: how is the paper? Difficult i bet, for you if you pass it will be a miracle man. You this lazy boy then smackx my head! During the 'N' level result day, I am not anxious about my other results but is my Maths. Because i want at least a A1 but what i got? A A2. But i am still happy, the next thing i think is weather i should go to sec 5 or ITE. In the end i still chose ITE because i am worried sec 5 i cannot cope so i send in my appication, and went back to find Mr. Ong cause i was worried i cannot get into the course that my cousin chose for me. In the end i got into the course. After about two to three days, i got my worse nightmare, the thing i did not want it to happen, it was she broke with me and it is today. So before the starting of school, my mood was so screwed but in the end i got back my self, now i am thinking, actually should i go to sec 5and enjoy my times with them? Cause it seem that it is more fun cause some of them say they miss my lameness and i am fun to make my class go crazy? But since i am in ITE already i should try my best to make my life better?

Today is the day man, That girl who hurt me is shall forget you now! You are just a memory to me! Bleh!

Ok. Now i am thinking of my secondary school. Shall we sing our Springfield secondary school song?

Me: Yes we should.

By miss tan: Springfielder's, Plesase stand.
Student Counseller: Scolar Sediya!
Miss Tan: Av boys, School song please. :)

Springfield, oh Springfield,

To you our loyalty we pledge,

With glory your flag we raise.

In one resounding voice

We sing your praise

Diligent in our work,

Your worth we proclaim.

Springfield, our Springfield

In truth and virtue we grow,

For Better Self and Better Tomorrow.

Springfield, oh Springfield,

We strive to live up to your name,

To bring you glory and fame.

From the glowing earth

Rises the golden sun,

Brightly lights the way

Till our work is done.

Springfield, dear Springfield,

We hear your beckoning call

Better Self for Better Tomorrow.

Packing!

Nothing to do at home. Rotting at home for the whole time. Hoping for people to call me go out for lunch or something because time is really very difficult to past with sleeping only. Woke up in the morning, drink water and use computer, went to eat lunch, eat medicine then sleep. this is my routine for the past feel days. So bored la. just now when to pack my book shelf, dun want to throw the things away but my mum say all must go. Sad man but what to do? Just throw.

Boring and weird dreams.

Yo people. Today just woke up now and i can tell you i am feeling terrible cause i am sick with fever and flu again! D: Anyway, nothing much to post. Bye.

After i ate the medicine i went to sleep and i dream about my attachment. I was late for like one hour and the best part is my boss just say, next time dun do it again. The second day it happen again but the boss just gave me and increment instead of childing me. How weird can it be huh? I was scared awoke by it and i went back to sleep again. This time the dream is even more weird,  i dream about getting back with that girl ??? That is so weird la but this time she treasure me like some kind of precious but i treat her like some kind of rubbish. How funny yeah. FYI the sleep is like only 5 hours? Weird man! Real weird. and i hope she would feel better now.

sick

Just now went to temple to pray form my attachment and hers too. but the moment i step out of the bus it started to rain and i just walk. How clever, then pray going to leave rain again and i took 19, have to transfer bus stop cause i dun have the airport pass but only have student pass. :D Now i am sick and i do not know why. Have blocked nose and mt throat seems to br burning and i am going to swim tommorrow. I am so smart ain't i? Anyway, i rewatch full moon again. Meroko is so brave and loyal. How i hope i have this type of  girlfriend. I am crazy i think.

Nothing to do

Good morning peeps. Now is 7.15 and i am awake. Lets count yeah, less then 7 hours i will be in  the train now going to Clementi for my attachment at Doncafe. Later could be going to swimming with Farhan at 8.45 to go for a swim cause he is able to wake up. We did not go for a swim cause that bloody joker cannot find his swimming trunk. So we went to changi village to eat NASI LEMAK! Yummy. Afterthat home and we talk about lots of things man, from school, to jokes and friends to classmates and relationships too. Went home after that and suppose to meet her to go pray but cause she cannot and i so call promise to go already so i have to keep my word and yeah, i am going to do it.  But afterthat i will be rotting at home, ROTTING AT HOME! :(

Outing.

I have a stupid ulcer on my tounge that hurts like what la. PAIN LA!!!! ROAR!

Humans who have my contact can you please message me?

Cause i am bored to death man this week.

Please be kind will cha? :D

Yesterday had and outing with my cousins.
It go like this:

• Woke up at 6 plus to go market
• Ate my favorite Bak Chor mee *Yummy*
• Went home at about 9 plus
• Lift B which is my block that life spoilt so have to use Life A
• Bathed, manage my blog skins.
• Napped for 30 minutes (LIKE THIS ALSO SHIOK!)
• Left home at 1.30.
• Took cab down to City hall MRT to meet them. (Difficult to get a cab man)
• Reach at 1.45 and the fare is $13.60.
• Saw some totally think themself very clever people dun even know how to greet people the 老一辈 people.
• Waited for my older cousins to come.
• Walk to Suntec Cinema to watch SHERLOCKS HOLMES and the show is so bored until i slept in the cinema.
• Played arcade awhile then go eat dinnet at KFC.
• Walk to Esplanet and stand there to watch a performance.
• After awhile we walk to the bench there and talk about hotels and our spooky experience.
• Around 10 plus we took MRT home and reach home about 11 plus i think.
• Bathed, talked to Feli on the MSN then sleep.

This batch of performers is jokers man.

Really piss off with my cousin man. Want to say anything say in front of my face la. You think you very pretty meh, i know i also not handsome but at least my attitude better la. You think you study good school big arh. After you graduate from the school is still a piece of paper only la. When you go to work with this attitude, if i am your boss i will just screw you! :@

Last Christmas

Merry Chritstmas to you people 

and 

Happy birthday to Shi Ling

Since it is christmas so shall we sing a christmas regarded song?

I shall present :

Ashley Tisdale- Last Christmas

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart 

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I’ll give it to someone

I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy

I keep my distance, but you still catch my eye

Tell me baby, do you recognize me?

Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

Happy Christmas

I wrapped it up and sent it

With a note saying "I love you", I meant it

Now I know what a fool I've been

But if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Special

Yea yea

A crowded room, friends with tired eyes

I'm hiding from you, and your soul of ice

I thought you were someone to rely on

Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A friend to discover with a fire in her heart

A man under cover but you tore me apart

Now I've found a real love, you'll never fool me again

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart

But the very next day you gave it away

This year, to save me from tears

I'll give it to someone special

Typical day.

Although it is Christmas, it is still a typical day for me though. Did nothing much, still the same old thing, woke up, help to cook lunch, sleep and sleep till evening, meet marcus cause that guy call me to meet him and finally home. I just love to sleep i do not know why. Maybe because i just love this hobby. And my jab place have blueblack that cannot be seen.


Few more days to attchment and i am so 'not' worried what i will screw up there. Although i have work before but this time has marks and i am seriously worried about it.

You do not need to so much although you say you expected it. I know you would like to go poly but as long as you give all you have during your attachment your results definetely will improve and get into poly. Jiayous! >_>!

In my own world.

                              I have just finsh watching the Hong Kong VCD. Cheers!~
But in this show i have learn something very meaningful, when fate come to you, no matter how you escape or run from it, in the end you still cannot hide from it. From this show, it made me laugh and cry. I must admit the ending is a very touching ending.From the show it will make me cherish and make me persue my happinesss
                                                                                                                                     

Enough of the show show thingy. Now, today woke up and bathed and go to office to help with the exhibition that is going to be commence on march. You all will ask why i so fast prepare already, reason is because there is no time. Thing have to be prepared, brocheres have to be chop with company stamp and place in boxes for easy transportation. Lunch time went to Paya Lebar to eat. Went back, did not do much cause i have done almost all the jobs i have been assign. Went home, change the bed sheet and watch the show till now here blogging.


                                                                                                                                                                 

Nearing the end of 2009, so have you all been thinking what achievements you all have this year?
For me, I can say all is just rubbish. But i believe i have achieve something that i have been wanting to get! It is to be able to study hard and courage. Cause this two is the things that i have not been able to acieve last year at Secondary 4. But here i have seen some things that are true, friends that treat you truthfully and some that need you only will come to look for you but when it did not need you it will just dump you one side. Most importantly is I got to see brain-washers, this people are really good actors. Anyway, i have learn to accept it. This is life.

                                                                                                                                                               




Today i also receive some gift,

First is from my boss, she gavem e a Special Peeling Milk with cost about $60 if i never remember wrongly.
Second is from my cousins wife which gave me a portable speaker
and lastly is from my cousin which is shirts.

                                                                                                                                                                  

Lastly, i have been thiking has i been wrong to begin with.
I really regretted but i just cannot stop.
Reason is because i also do not know.
I think you all know?
Do not know so sorry, i will not tell you.
Bye.